suitor = guy = boylet.
eff= echozserang friends forever. therefore,
These past few days, i was a little bit confuse, and i guess i am undergoing the stages of love process(click this to know the said process) particularly the sleepless nights stage.
This is caused by girlet. She’s my bff and eff, according to her were like that. (hey girlet, you know who you are!). So, i was starting to think of her every night, maybe i am falling in love, i don’t know, or maybe i am just infatuating!.
Girlet and i are friends for two years, we know each other very well, we’re classmates, i met her parents, i’ve been in their house, she knows everything about me, and i know everything about her too. I never thought of loving her more as friends, because maybe we can’t be more than that. Lately i am starting to fall for her, then a guy came and currently suiting her. This guy is also a friend of mine, but we’re not that close(we are in the process). First, when i found out about this, i was really hurt, it made me confuse for days and nights, wondering if girlet also likes the guy. It was really wrong timing because when the time i was falling for girlet, he came.
Last sunday, i went to church, to tell and ask God about the feelings i have for girlet. Everything became cleared, we’re just friends and maybe i’m just infatuating. Finally, i found out that girlet also likes the guy. It doesn’t hurt like before, but i am still worrying for girlet because the guy’s reputation when it comes to girls is not that good(but i am not against if they become lovers).
My conclusion is, MAYBE I LOVE GIRLET MORE THAN FRIENDS, girlet believes were really just friends and i think she’s right. Lastly, even if i love her more than friends, i am not ready of giving her myself, she won’t give me herself either, and friendship is all we can give for each other, In other words “Masaya na kami bilang magkaibigan”. We are happy as friends because i am focused on my studies and career.
So girlet, i am always be here for you. Sorry if i hurt you. I hope we remain our friendship forever and thank you for listening to your friend’s opinions and suggestions about boylet. Please don’t feel awkward after reading this post. I’m still me, steve. I just shared my feelings.
NOTE: Please watch the Part 2 of this post.